Hopeful Thoughts

I hope that one day my children will realize how much I love them. I hope they know that I’ve only wanted the very best for them. My parents were imperfect people but there has never been a day in my life when I ever doubted their love. I hope my kids can find it in their hearts to let go of all the damage I might have done while trying to be the best mom I could. 

I guess I didn’t think that after parenting for 30 years that I could feel like I did it all wrong. They aren’t bad people. In fact, I think they are pretty awesome. But there are times when I think one or two of them might feel they survived despite my parenting- not as a result of it. 

If I try to help, I’m interfering. If I give them space, I’m abandoning them. If I ask too many questions, I’m being nosy and if I wait for them to come to me, I’m ignoring them. And I can’t show emotions….nope, don’t get me started on that one. 

I hope this is all just me beating myself up over something that has nothing to do with me. 

It’s not easier when they grow up. Especially while experiencing major life events during a pandemic. (And being their parent during this time isn’t a walk in the park either!)

The bottom line is-

I love my kids more than anything in the world. 

I will do anything and everything I can do to help them.

I think they are amazing human beings- kind, generous and funny. 

I wish them nothing but happiness and love. 

I hope they know that.

This post is in response to Linda G. Hill’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday- July 10, 2021- Hope. To find out more about this challenge click on the link or the badge at the top of this post.

Here’s hoping for better days!

-Kat

Not Ready for the New Day

My state is lifting all pandemic restrictions and fully opening. A new day is dawning.

And I’m not ready.

Since the countdown began to things returning to normal, I’ve struggled on and off with waves of anxiety at the thought. Although today is the “big day” I’ve already seen the shift . A larger percentage of people have ditched their masks. On social media, I see ‘friends’ celebrating with large gatherings, trips, and no safety measures.

And it’s freaking me out.

I am fully vaccinated. People are being asked to use the honor system. If a person is not vaccinated, he is being asked to do the right thing and wear a mask. Unless the person has a medical reason for not being vaccinated (and would still be wearing a mask if that was the case), I am trying to understand why someone would not get the vaccine – not only for their own safety but the safety of others. Then again, I cannot help jumping to conclusions and assuming that a person who would not wear a mask unvaccinated is probably in that same group of people who did not take the pandemic seriously. I know that I should give people the benefit of the doubt and I’m trying sooooooo hard!

Then there’s the matter of my grandsons, who are too young to be vaccinated. They are still at risk. They have to wear masks. In our family, even if we were so inclined to not wear a mask, if the boys are with us masks are required. Especially with six year old Beej, who will not hesitate to point out that it’s not safe to go without a mask. He has been a rock star throughout the pandemic- spending a good part of the year in the company of adults only and remaining safe in all areas- mask, social distancing and hand-washing- with no complaints. And I will continue to keep him safe until he is no longer at risk.

Things aren’t going to be normal. Each state has different guidelines. Businesses have the right to require masks and exercise safety measures. Although it feels like the world is opening up and everything will be ‘normal’ again, the truth is that even normal will be a new normal and it will take time to adjust to it. The reality is other parts of the world are experiencing surges and lockdowns. New variants of the virus seems to be popping up daily.

It’s too soon to toss the masks and pretend that the last 14 or 15 months never happened. It’s still here. It’s just different.

I won’t be ditching my mask. I will be cautiously dipping my toe into the new normal to test the waters. And as we move forward, regardless of where you might fall on the pandemic spectrum in terms of belief or opinion, I hope you will continue to practice patience and kindness.

Peace and love,

-Kat

Y is for “You’re the One That I Want” #AtoZChallenge

I was sixteen when Grease was released in movie theaters. If that wasn’t the perfect age for this movie, I’m not sure what was! From the first viewing, I fell in love with all of it. The fifties vibes. The clothes. The music. The characters AND the actors. The story. Who couldn’t fall for the love story of Danny and Sandy?

Torn apart by their differences, “You’re the One That I Want” is the perfect showcase for their open display of how far they are willing to go to be what the other one wants them to be and realizing they didn’t have to change at all. Watching this video now, it doesn’t seem quite as risque as I remembered as a teenager.

I had the record album, which I played to death. I burned off endless calories performing along with all of the songs- sometimes with my siblings in tow. This always wound up with bickering over who could play each part. (And my baby sister in tears because she was always too young and small to play Sandy or Rizzo, the ultimate bad girl with the heart of gold.)

We all became 1950’s greasers when it was time to sing “Greased Lightning” and dreamy swoony girls over “Beauty School Drop Out.”

And to this day, my absolute favorite quote of the movie is-

“You can’t just walk out of a drive-in!” -Danny Zuko

Writing this post makes me want to watch it again. I’ve sat here with a smile on my face the entire time. What a happy memory!

This post is part of Blogging From A-Z Challenge-Y.

Peace,

-Kat

L is for Love’s Baby Soft #AtoZChallenge

THIS is what happens when I write ahead… I looked at drafts to see if I had started on my N post and here was L- all abandoned and alone!

“You can try hard….”

“HARRY!”

“Or you can try soft.”

Love’s Baby Soft- my perfume of choice as a teenager. I can conjure up the aroma in my memory. It was a light, powdery fragrance. If it’s possible, it smelled exactly like a scent named “Love’s Baby Soft” would. I’m sure I bathed myself in it but in moderation the scent was perfect for a young teenage girl who wanted to smell good. Subtle and not offensive… let me repeat- in moderation.

This commercial was a favorite to re-enact in my house growing up. My sisters and I loved nothing better than taking turns being the brazen vixen calling out “HARRY” in our interpretation of a confident ‘I’m going to grab you and make you mine’ voice alternated with the sweet, softly seductive ‘Harry’ in our coy, eyes batting sweetly, head tilted at an angle cutie pie stance. We must have driven my mother crazy!

Do you have any favorite commercials from your childhood? There are so many I wasn’t able to use… I ended up filling in my alphabet, swapping out this for that, spending hours looking through the 1970’s pop culture online to jog my memory.

This post is part of Blogging From A to Z- L.

This makes me want to search online and see if Love’s Baby Soft is still sold today!

-Kat

M is for Match Game #AtoZChallenge

Do you remember Match Game with host Gene Rayburn? Two contestants would try to match answers with the panel comprised of six celebrities. Although at first the questions asked were bland in nature, it was when they took on a double entendre tone that the show was really entertaining to watch. An example given is “Johnny always put butter on his blank.”

I had a difficult time deciding on a video to share. Most were longer than anyone would probably watch. All of them were pretty funny. I finally chose the one below for three simple reasons- 1. It is short. 2. It gives you a fun look at fashion and hairstyles from the 1970’s. 3. There’s a good mix of celebrity panelists.

Match Game was one of the places where I got “to know” celebrities I might not have seen otherwise. My favorites were Brett Somers, Richard Dawson and Charles Nelson Reilly. I think my parents were okay with us kids watching it because most of the time when the fill-in-the-blanks were suggestive, they went over our heads and the majority of the time the answers also blew right past us. This show was definitely a show of the 70’s!

We were big fans of game shows. Some of my other favorites were Card Sharks, The Newlywed Game, Let’s Make a Deal, and Family Feud.

How about you? Did you watch game shows growing up? Which were your favorites?

This post is part of Blogging From A to Z- M.

Trying to not fall too far behind-

-Kat