7.2.17

“It’s okay if every weekend doesn’t lead to big moments and campfires and laughter that carries on for hours and hours. Some weekends might be quiet, still, with plenty of room to contemplate. And in that contemplation room, there is room to grow. So hold those weekends dear. Don’t see them as less or as threats to the more exciting times. There is beauty and truth even in the seemingly mundane.”          -Morgan Harper Nichols

dandelion on patio 7.2.17

I need this.

-Kat

Time Out

My mom sent me to my room. I am over fifty years old and my mom sent me to my room. I’m not in trouble. (At least I’m pretty sure I’m not!)

We are away for the weekend- my husband, youngest son- Andy, my parents and the two little guys. Kris began a summer job this week so we won’t be seeing much of the middle kid. The little guys’ parents are working. I’ve been on two year old duty since Wednesday and I’m tired. I woke up at 6a.m. and realized at 1:00p.m. that I had not sat down a single time. I ate breakfast, taking bites as I passed the counter while getting the little kids ready. I ate lunch standing at the counter, walking back and forth between the counter and table and refrigerator…..

I’m tired.

And when seven year old C.J. asked me if I could sit and read with him, my mom sent me to my room. She’s a mom and I think she saw that if I had read with C.J. it would have been another 7 hours before I might get a chance to just plain sit.

I had noticed throughout the day, as I went from room to room and task to task, that everyone else was sitting down, reading or watching tv or playing. I glanced at my phone in passing but that was about it. I wanted to sit down and relax. I really did. But I have a difficult time doing that when there are things that could be done….and knowing that if I don’t do them right now, when I’m done sitting down, I will still have to do them. I guess that takes the relaxation part away from my potential sitting. Does that make sense?

And since I was sick for a month and spent that time also picking up, dropping off, picking up another and caring for little guys, I have had no time for myself. Being me, I need down time and quiet time and time when I have no human interaction. I know that this is something that I really need to work on- carving out this much needed time for myself. It’s not a luxury- although others might view it as such. It’s necessary for me.

And so I’m sitting here in my space- my quiet space that I’ve been working on for a few years now, trying to make it into a place where I can write, or read, or sit in silence.

I’m grateful to my mom for knowing what I needed, even if I didn’t. And I’m kind of proud of myself for actually listening to my mom. The truth is, my kids don’t always listen to me when I try to gently push them in the right direction and I’m sure I am still the same with my mom. Maybe I’ve grown up just a little bit more, huh?

So, I’m off to kick my shoes off, put my feet up and watch a little tv.

Happy Saturday!

-Kat

#AtoZChallenge P is for Peace

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“Peace is not something you wish for. It’s something you make, something you do, something you are, and something you give away.” – John Lennon

peace
pēs/
noun
  1. freedom from disturbance; quiet and tranquility.
    “you can while away an hour or two in peace and seclusion”
    I not only desire peace in my life, I NEED it. I function best in a peaceful environment with a peaceful mind. Having peace in my family is key to everyone’s happiness.
    IMG_4337And it doesn’t happen overnight or just because I say it is going to be- it takes work. Not everyone wants peace or even thrives on it, like I do. I’m aware that there are people who crave chaos and disorder and noise. And that is where they are happiest. I’m just not one of those people.
    In order for me to be at peace, I need peace. 🙂

    How about you? -Kat

 

 

Imagine

I was up most of the night, watching election results trickle in and watching my Facebook feed blow up. I felt the fear, disbelief and anger growing with a good majority of my Facebook friends. Like I mentioned in my previous post, my friends’ candidate of choice was a mixed bag. This applied to real like people as well as Facebook, although I really need to state that my Facebook friends are as real to me as the “real” people. A large population of these people are parents in the LGBT community and/or LGBT themselves. I understand why emotions are running high, especially with this group. They are worried, not only for the country in whole, but for their children, whose safety and well being are at jeopardy under new leadership.

I’m not going to lie to you, especially not after I’ve made it my practice to share the good, the bad and the ugly. My stomach was in knots. I had to shut it down and lose myself in watching Friends and playing Cooking Fever on my iPad.

 This morning after a total of 3 hours sleep, my stomach has settled down but I have a nice tension headache in the works. I’m resisting the urge to call Kris and tell them they have to get all their ducks in a row NOW! That’s my fear speaking and I know that it won’t do Kris any good for me to freak out on them. As a rational voice in one of my Facebook groups pointed out, changes will not occur overnight.

Is this the worse thing to happen? I’m not sure. I guess we will have to wait and see. Until then, I’m going to go back to writing my NaNoWriMo novel (over 2000 words behind), find the first Ice Age movie to watch with C.J., attend Veteran’s Day assemblies and try my best to channel the peace that is greatly missing in the world these days.

Hugh’s Weekly Photo Challenge: Week 20- Solitude

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Ari, Netflix and a warm crocheting project

What a timely topic! My son, along with his wife and two children, moved in with us temporarily six months ago. It was supposed to be for a month, maybe two. They moved in one month after my college kids left and my husband and I were looking at an empty nest. The last six months have been less than empty…. This time has been a blessing, giving us precious time with our grandsons but it comes with a price.

When spring break arrived and I was looking at an empty calendar, I took advantage of the free time and ran away from home, with my trusty furry sidekick in tow. Ari and I have been spending lots of time doing absolutely nothing while we cherish our solitude. The weather has not been on our side with freezing temperatures and snow forecasts but the silence has been heavenly!

Please be sure to visit Hugh’s Weekly Photo Challenge: Week 20- Solitude to check out everyone’s own versions of solitude and details on how to participate.