Tag: life

M is for Morning

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Amazing Comeback!

Every morning I stop to check on the flowers on my way into my Loved One’s house. Let me tell you, these guys have been through the wringer since they first popped their sprouts above ground a few weeks ago. The temperature has been all over the place in the past week and these flowers haven’t given up. I was sure they were a goner when they were buried under the heavy snow on Sunday but lo and behold, this morning they had actually multiplied and I’m predicting that by afternoon they will be standing at attention in full bloom.

Over the past four months, my life has taken yet another turn and I’ve found myself headed in a direction much different than I expected. It was only recently when someone commented on how I had lost touch of my life that I realized that I could no longer use the circumstances as an excuse. It is time for me to accept that this is what my life is. I’m part of the sandwich generation, actually a double decker or club sandwich- depending on which term you use. I’m caring for multiple generations, in addition to my own kids- who are technically grown up and not requiring as much attention. It’s not something that happened to me. It might not be the path I would have chosen but it looks like it chose me and this is where I am. In all cases I’m given this precious opportunity to spend time caring for and being with people in my life that might not have played such a prominent role in my life under different circumstances. I might have talked to my loved one and visited regularly but not known the relationship that ours has developed into as her health declines. And the little guys would have probably been my dear grandsons who I love dearly and baby sat and spent time with but didn’t know as much as I do these two since they spend half their time with us. All of these relationships are deeper and fuller than I thought they could be. And for that I’m grateful.

As for those flowers? Every morning I’ll pause to check their progress and admire their strength, beauty and perseverance and they will forever remind me of this heartbreaking yet special time with people I love.

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Peace and love,

-Kat 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunshine, Rainbows, Unicorns….

nighttimeHi! I’m back again, dropping in when I can. Life is getting to be a bit much these days and I need to be here in the blogging world where I belong!!

I’ve been pretty much a big downer lately. Yeah, I can see you rolling your eyes from behind my screen, like DUH!? I know it. I’ve actually written posts that I did not publish because they depressed me. It’s no secret. Things aren’t going well over here in Kat Land. But I found myself with a little free time and a need to perk myself up. I was looking for motivation and found a few quotes that I really need to keep in mind

I thought I would share them with you:

  • Your calm mind is the ultimate weapon against your challenges. So relax.” ― Bryant McGill
  • Do not let the behavior of others destroy your inner peace.” – Dalai Lama
  • People inspire you, or they drain you. PICK THEM WISELY.” –Hans F. Hasen
  • “Dearly Beloved, We are gathered here today to get through this thing called life!” -Prince

And my favorite for the day-

“I will breathe. I will think of solutions, I will not let my worry control me. I will not let my stress level break me. I will simply breathe. And it will be okay. Because I don’t quit.” – Shayne McClendon

Here are some things I’m going to work on making part of every day:

  1. Get more fresh air, regardless of the weather.
  2. Drink more water.
  3. Force myself to take some down time.
  4. Read, read, read.
  5. Try to incorporate some of my pre-downer life back into this place I’m in now so I don’t feel so out of touch.

So, maybe this post isn’t as bright as the title implied but I’m hoping it’s somewhat of an improvement!!

Hope you are all doing well and the sun is shining down on you!

-Kat, who hopes to be here more often…..and a bit more cheerful! 

#AtoZChallenge R is for Rainbow

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“We live in a rainbow of chaos.” – Paul Cezanne

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I am intrigued by this concept- living in a rainbow of chaos. See, I find rainbows to be quite neat and orderly. The colors line up in the same order and while they might blend into the next, each color has its own definition. I suppose that for some it could seem chaotic that there might not be clear division between each color.

Then I look at my life and I can easily see how it might appear to be a rainbow of chaos to outsiders. But it’s my rainbow and my chaos and as long as I like it, I guess that’s all that matters, right?

What do you think?

-Kat

You can read the rest of my A to Z posts- HERE.

Life is what happens…

I am trying to change the way I look at the world, my life, everything. After almost a year of having my son and his family under our roof, they have moved into their own new home. I am happy for them. And worried for them.

My life took an unexpected turn almost a year ago and I can’t help feeling like I lost something. But I received a precious gift and that was seeing the daily changes in baby Beej as he grew from infant to toddler. I will miss CJ’s endless chatter and perpetual motion that a 6 year old brings to a house. But boy will I relish the quiet!

My blog took a serious hit this past year and I felt it deeply and thought about it often. I had a difficult time completing any task, let alone a train of thought that was developing into a good post. In the silence of my house (before Andrew woke up), I’ve started this post 3 separate times.

I now have time to write…well, I have some time. That’s the thing about life.

You spend all this time- at least I feel like I did- thinking “when this happens….” or “after this…” and so much is going on while you are waiting.

As Michael moved his family and their belongings to their new house, we received news of two loved ones- one with a possible serious mental illness, the other with a cancer diagnosis. While my husband, kids and little guys are all safe and healthy, these two hits are close to home. I am sad that people we care about are suffering. I am concerned for both of them.

And I’m reminded how precious life is.

In the coming weeks I will be working on my blog and my new sanctuary. I will be spending time with the college kids before they leave. I will be re-connecting with family and friends.

I will be sure that the life I’m living while I’m “busy making other plans” is meaningful.

But boy, I’ll miss the lego guys who randomly appeared throughout my house, the hunt for the pacifier at nap/bed time and retrieving the remote from out of reach locations.

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