“When I look at Kris, I still see a work in progress. He hasn’t found his way yet but how can he when he’s still trying to figure out who he is. He’s got a long way to go but he’ll get there in his own sweet time. And I will be there somewhere helping, watching, and loving him.” – Words Don’t Come Easy, February 11, 2015
When this was first published just over a year and a half ago, I still had so much to learn about my middle child. In the time that has passed since then, Kris has a new name ,pronouns and gender expression which more accurately fit who Kris is.
This post has always held a special place in my heart because I remember how confused I felt at the time. I held onto the hope that I wouldn’t always feel like a “jumbled mess” but alas, that feeling seems to be sticking with me.
**Update- September 2016- Kris remains a work in progress, a few steps closer to recognizing and sharing who their true self is.
I have started this post so many times I have lost count.
I can’t seem to find the words to begin and because I can’t find a beginning, I feel the words pile up in a lump in my throat, wanting to just GET OUT… and they can’t. All because of my inability to begin.
And so the words of my Writer’s Quote Wednesday quote from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland come to mind- “Begin at the beginning.”
Kris will be turning 22 years old this week and as has been custom since Michael’s first birthday, I turn towards reflection. This will be the 4th birthday since Kris came out as transgender. This one is hitting hard.
I’m not sure where this post is going to go and I promised myself that wherever it went, I would go with it- no major editing or second guessing. My inability to write or…
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