X is for X

I had one of those days that if I could have marked a big red “X” on the box on my calendar to mark it as over before it even began, I would have. I knew it was going to be a difficult day for many reasons.

First of all, it was going to place eXtreme demands on me socially. I would have to be “on” for hours, making small talk, smiling, having pictures taken, connecting… all in a setting where I am uncomfortable with some people that I don’t really care for.

Once those formalities were over, I would be in an intense meeting setting, interviewing prospective candidates with a group of people that I had not worked with long enough to get a real feel for their personalities outside of murk pressings based on my gut instinct. (My gut instinct is overwhelmingly accurate but that wasn’t reassuring enough to ease my anxiety.)

In the end, we chose the person I did not want, which will have a major impact on how we conduct business moving forward, making me question my position on this board. The evening ended with me feeling emotional, frustrated, undervalued, disrespected and judged. It was disheartening.

I’m struggling to look on the bright side and search out the positive. The day sucked all around. The best part of my day is that I am finally able to “X” if off as DONE!

And moving forward, on a positive note, tomorrow I will be visiting a cousin who I have not seen in a few years and spending time with a friend who I have spent a year seeing in passing, exchanging, “we need to catch up really soon!” But most best of all, this weekend we are going to visit my youngest son, Andrew, at school!



9 thoughts on “X is for X

  1. This reminds me of another song…that has the lyrics…Life’s a dance, you learn as you go, sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow, don’t worry ’bout what you don’t know, life’s a dance you learn as you go.

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  2. I really feel you on this one. We’re getting ready to go to a big 90th birthday thing for my partner’s grandmother on Saturday and I’m not looking forward to being around all of those people most of the day Saturday and into the evening. It’s going to be stressful and chaotic and there won’t be much down time but the good thing is it’s only one day of it and then I get to come back home to my peaceful life. Sorry you had such a negative experience on your X day.

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      1. Thanks Kat! It was an extremely long and tiring day but I’ve had worse and it’s over now. Back home to my peace and quiet and I think I’m going to take the day off to reward myself. Hope you have a great week.

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