Fuzzy Thoughts

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When I found this quote, I immediately thought about Kris and all he’s been through and continues to go through in his journey to become the best self he can be. I was at a meeting tonight and when I got home he was sitting on the couch with his laptop open on the coffee table. He had spent the day recreating our house on his Sim’s game and he had filled it with Sim’s characters of us. Apparently we as Sim’s people were quite amusing. He looked up when I walked into the room and smiled as he reached out to pause the tv show he was watching. The upturned corners of his mouth, the sort of slouchy way he was sitting so he could reach his computer, and the flow of his words as he related the latest in his Sim’s house and then went on to inform me that he was watching the last episode of “Secret Life of the American Teenager” all confirmed what I had felt when I first walked in. He was totally relaxed and chilling. This was Kris, just being himself and he was really okay.

This doesn’t happen as often as it should. I’m hoping that as time passes he has more and more happy days where he is comfortable being himself. I hope that his world expands to include friends and maybe some more family. I hope that others will be able to see Kris. I hope they are able to KNOW him. Not just see an awkward quiet kid. To really see him and know him as who he truly is.  The person he was meant to be.

14 thoughts on “Fuzzy Thoughts

  1. Reblogged this on Charissa's Grace Notes and commented:
    Simply must re-post this…the place where I don’t even know that I am…where I am so flowy and involved with life that I think I shall burst with contentment! That is the place Kat writes, and Constance, please know that inside the heart of this seemingly small and quiet person is the heart of a huge freaking lion and the determination of an elephant and the protective grace of a water buffalo!

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  2. Kat…I cried when I read this. I know where he was at…he was at the same place I get to more often these days.

    Bless you for being a way-maker and not a hay-maker to the chops!!

    With big respect and bigger love!! ❤ ❤
    Charissa Grace, blessed to have you as a Sis, even if you aren't a Scorpio!! 🙂

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    1. I asked Kris, my resident astrology expert, if there were any issues with a Scorpio and a Taurus being friends and he said now problem- not like say Taurus and Gemini or Sagittarius. 🙂

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  3. Kat, as I read this my thoughts went to my 50 year old son. He’s going through some life transformations now. I lived with him for 2 years while he checked into rehab and worked to keep his life together. It’s painful for the whole family. My brother and sister both have children who went through rehab at an early age.we weren’t united. My oldest son was first to suffer additiction, and lost his life to it. We see now we kept secrets, made judgements, didn’t love and trust and accept. We didn’t know what to do or how to help. You see I understand the difficulty when a child is what the world sees as the norm. I celebrate with you as you enjoy your son’s transformation..

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    1. Thank you, Meredith. When I first started writing that piece I thought I was going to write more about that- that everyone is going through some sort of transformation…. along that line. I wrote it last night and it just stuck on Kris. I decided to sleep on it and see how I felt in the morning. Did I want to start over and go the direction I thought I would go in or just let it be? I decided to let it be.

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    2. Well said, Meredith, and I mourn along with you over missed opportunities and too many years of walking stark and within myself. I am so glad you have allowed the pain to become wisdom, and pray that I find the same determination to not waste one speck of hurt, but rather allow it to become wisdom.

      Charissa

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