What do you think? Is it true?
I’m shy, reserved and at times, uptight. My inner child rarely comes out to play. She actually only shows up with a very small handful of people and she is so unlike me- so different than I was as a child. Growing up I was….. well, shy, reserved and uptight. Honest.
My friend, Diane, told me I needed to start having a drink or two at family functions- just to take the edge off. I don’t drink with- in-laws, family, co-workers…… around my kids. I really don’t drink much at all. There’s a reason. It doesn’t take the edge off. I live in fear of really letting go and telling everyone exactly what I think. I actually do that enough without the aid of alcohol so I think it’s a good idea to keep the lid on that one. I prefer to be a bit stressed and on edge. It’s safer for everyone involved.
That inner child- I have to tell you- she’s something else. She’s a risk taker. Although nervous, she’s willing to try new things. Luckily, the old everyday me is always lurking in the background to keep control of the situation so she never really gets into trouble. She’s been known to dance- not in public but in the presence of the friend who brings that swaying to the music, move your hips kind of feeling out. She’s not as self-conscious. She relaxes in a way few people ever see. (And she can be pretty outspoken, too.)
My friend, Rob of the “first love Rob” fame (and who would be hurt that he did not make the pantheon of friends- Thanks, ‘Rissa- love it better than hat trick) was the first person to bring out my inner child. Granted I was little more than a child at the time, but he did bring out that side of me. He was surprised when I told him that not everyone who knows me sees that side and he suggested that maybe I should let people see it. At the time I said that I thought it might be a bit too much for everyone. I don’t think they would like her at all. Besides, I wouldn’t feel comfortable. That inner child is INSIDE for a reason. It’s nice for her to come out and play but if things could easily get out of control if she was hanging out all the time.
Nope. I choose to go with my gut. She appears when she feels most comfortable and it’s going to stay that way.
Do you have an inner child? What does she/he like to do that’s different than the everyday adult you? I’d like to hear from you!