Not Quite the Last…

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Last night was Andrew’s last concert at Symphony Center. What an experience! It’s an amazing concert hall and how cool that he has performed on the same stage as the Chicago Symphony Orchestra!

The lasts continue. Last week was his last high school concert. Last weekend was his last chamber music competition. Tonight is his last banquet. Next weekend is the last prom and then next week is the last graduation.

And just like that, it’s over. I can still remember bringing Michael to kindergarten with a rebellious K (2-1/2 years old) and a screaming Andy (fresh out of the womb). It really does feel like it was yesterday that I felt so overwhelmed and run down. It felt like it would never end. Little by little I got more involved in school- volunteering to be a room mom, for book fairs, in the media center, on the PTO. As my kids grew, it seemed as if my volunteering duties grew along with them until they became my (unpaid) job. I loved being in the kids’ schools, knowing their teachers, seeing the environment my kids were learning in. All of it! I met my best friends through my children. I gained so much over the years. I wasn’t just helping kids cut paper and glue on shapes. (I’m sure these skills will serve me well in the future- the organizational, event planning, you name it- although maybe helping kids cut paper might help me somewhere too, you never know!)

I’m finishing up most of my responsibilities in these final weeks and I’m feeling a bit sad. And lost. I wrapped so much of who I am into this part of my life that I’m not quite sure where I’m going from here. I’m excited to be a more involved grandma but that can’t be the only focus of my life. I need to figure out who I want to be and what I want to do.

And until then, I’m going to enjoy Andy’s last days!

 

6 thoughts on “Not Quite the Last…

  1. Good luck to you. I can definitely understand the way you are feeling. I’m sure something amazing and unexpected will turn up for you that will be perfect. It’s nice to see how happy your kids are as they embark on new journeys…it means you did a great job raising them!!

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  2. I have to keep reminding myself that “lasts” can also mean “firsts”. My daughters last week at home, her first week in her new life. It is hard to wonder who I will be without her at home, as it must be for you with your son finishing school. We are women and mothers, we adjust, it just takes a little while. 🙂

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    • So very true! I know my son is excited to start college and I’m excited for him. Something tells me I will have plenty of firsts to discover in the near future!

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